Question:
I've always understood "G-d" as the eternal no-thingness that is the ground of being, the universal self and the true oneness. I know that the Kabbalists refer to G-d as the "Ein Sof"--the Endless. So I think, "Hey, maybe they're talking the same thing."
But then the cognitive dissonance kicks in: The Eternal Is-ness upon which I meditate just is. But in Jewish writings you have the Ein Sof with a
full-blown personality, telling people "do this" and "don't do this" and "it
really bugs me when you do that." How am I supposed to understand a perfect and infinite No-thingness that's just so, well, so down on earth?
Answer:
In typical Jewish fashion, I'm going to ask you a question back. A dirty question. Like when all the enlightened thinkers are playing in their sandbox,
asking all the questions that fit the rules they set for their game--and then comes along some obnoxious little kid (or an adult with a little-kid brain) and
asks an obvious question that everyone was subconsciously trying to avoid because it makes mud pie out of all their sand castles.
Now there are rules to dirty questions, too: The answer has to be as simple and straightforward as the question. Something you could tell a bright five-year
old (or she could tell you).
So here's my dirty question: Please explain to me exactly what is the difference between this No-thingness with a capital N and vanilla nothing with a
lower case n. What makes one Nothing G-d and the other just nothing?
In case it's necessary--and even if it isn't, because it's fun anyways--let me illustrate with an example. Let's say I presented you my pet pink elephant.
Only that you can't see this elephant, because it's invisible. And like most invisible stuff, it has no mass, so you can't touch it either. Elephants are
usually pretty noisy, but this one doesn't make a peep. Elephants also usually smell a lot, but not this one. And, oh, did I say it was pink? Only because I
didn't have any other color to call it--invisible things don't have color. It's actually not an elephant, either. I just had to call it something.
So, in truth, my pink elephant is neither pink nor an elephant nor anything at all. It has no measurements, no description and there is really nothing at
all we can say about it. That's because, you see, it actually is nothing. Meaning, it does not exist.
Now let's talk about G-d. Or as the Kabbalists call Him, the Ein Sof--That Which Has No End. Not only has the Ein Sof no end, it has no descriptors
whatsoever. And since it is infinite, neither does it have any measurements.
You see, the Ein Sof is not just infinite. Infinite could apply to, say, infinite kiwis or infinite hotel rooms or an infinite number of words I
could use to describe infinity. But those infinities provide useful information about themselves. Like, if I take out one kiwi from my infinite grocery store, I
know that this infinity is at least partially made of kiwis. Sure, that kiwi is like nothing compared to the entire set of whatever else is in there--but it's
not really nothing. Because, after all, if that kiwi is nothing, then what is the infinite grocery store other than infinite nothings--which equals to nothing.
Not so the Ein Sof. The Ein Sof isn't made of anything. No kiwis, no words, no parts whatsoever. That's why your nomenclature is so
appropriate: It is truly No-Thing-ness--because there are no things there.
In truth, you can't even say that the Ein Sof exists. Well, maybe you can, but Maimonides didn't think so--and he isn't even considered a Kabbalist
(most of the time). He wrote that one cannot say about G-d that He is an existence, because then He would need a cause that brought Him into existence.
So G-d, he basically says, is a non-entity. He's responsible for everything else
existing, but He Himself cannot be called an existence. Existence is just one of
those great ideas He came up with one day.
Hey, next time you're in an argument with an atheist, tell him for me, "Yeah,
we also believe that G-d is not an existence." That'll send 'em reeling.
As for all these descriptions of kindness, wisdom, etc., Maimonides provides
a simple answer. He says, look, you can't say that He isn't kind, right?
Or that He isn't wise. Or that He doesn't have any particular quality. If He is
infinite, He must have all of that, as well. That's called negative theology and
a lot of philosophers, including Muslims and Christians, really got off on that
idea. (For one thing, it answered that prickly issue of the big rock that even
You-Know-Who can't lift.)
So back to our question (which is really the question of Rabbi Hasdai Crescas
on Maimonides): If so, if G-d, the Ein Sof or whatever we will call Him,
has no descriptors and can't even be called an existence, then in what way is
He/It any different than nothing at all?
Nothing, Something and Beyond
Just so you won't go off telling everyone that the Guadalajara Rebbe doesn't
believe G-d exists, I'll have to fill in the answer for you right here and now.
It's actually very simple, but I'll make it a little more complex so all us
adults won't feel embarrassed about not realizing it before:
Let's talk in terms of information: Nothing contains no information. Yes, you
can read that two ways. Let's try again: Whatever you say about nothing just
isn't true. That's basically what nothing is: A vacuum of information.
The Ein Sof, on the other hand, can provide you with oodles of
information. In fact, infinite information. Like what? Like the fact that
existence extends from it. And it extends through the medium of ten sefirot,
four worlds and all that engineering stuff. Really all the information there is
and ever could be. The caveat is that none of that information tells you
anything about the Ein Sof.
So we have three, not two, categories:
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Nothing provides no information.
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Something provides a limited set of information, which accumulatively
describes that something.
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The Ein Sof provides unlimited information, which accumulatively gets
you nowhere. It's information. It's information about the Ein Sof. But it
never gets around to telling you what the Ein Sof is.
Like, say, a fingerprint. Get this: All of reality is nothing but G-d's
fingerprint. A fingerprint is information. It's a unique identifier that extends
from one individual alone to point to only one place and tell you whodunit. But
it tells you nothing about this person whodunit. Zilch. Just like any of those
numbers they use to identify you in some privacy-intruding database: A number
that points uniquely to you and only you, but says absolutely nothing about you
(even if those bureaucrats believe that number is you). So the entire
universe and all the higher ones, too, all the way up to the very first
emanation, they all point to a single, ultimate Source of All Being--and tell
you absolutely zilch about what that Whatever-It-Is is.
There's a crucial point at which this analogy breaks down: With a person, since most of us are somethings, there is real information we could put
in that database that will tell us something about him or her. Big feet, Latino-Yiddish accent, persistent chillied breath, answers letters from confused
Bujus... (that accumulated, didn't it?). Fingerprints just happen to be one of those things that don't seem to enhance other data when accumulated to tell you
more about this person. With the Ein Sof, its an integral axiom that all information is fingerprints.
That's neat. Let's think some more about that. But first:
What's in a Name?
In the language of Kabbalah, this is what's called the Name. As in,
"Before the world was created, there was just Him and His Name alone." A name,
too, provides no intelligible information about a person. Two people with
diametrically opposed personalities can share the same name. One character named
Tzvi goes about posting unintelligible sci-fi fantasy nonsense on the internet
while claiming that he writes my correspondence--and another with the exactly
the same name minds his own business writing books of nice meditations. Proof
that a name provides no character information.
BTW: The standard, Jewish name for the Ein Sof is not a three-letter
but a four-letter one. Personally, I don't know what the word G-d means,
but I have some idea of what the four-letter name means. It's a conjugation of
the verb to be. Only that it's not a verb and it doesn't mean to be.
Rather, it could be (somewhat awkwardly) translated into modern-think as "That
Which Causes Being."
Wrap your head around that one and you'll realize that it provides lots of
information--and tells us less about Him than a fingerprint. What kind of
being-ness is He into? How does He feel about being--or not being. What's it
like to be beyond being, looking down on it and saying, "Hey, I made that!"
The name tells us nothing. Zilch. And in this case, that's because there's
nothing there that can be said.
Yet that name is a unique identifier. After all, there can only be one source
for being-ness. Being is a singularity. Other than a certain Jamaican sect, I
don't know of anyone that has a plural form of the state of being.
That's part of the quality of a name. Like when you call a person's name and
he turns around and comes--all of him. Not just his navel, not just his nose,
not just his brain or his heart. All of him. If a person is in a faint, whisper
his name in his ear and his eyes may open.
Which leads to our next, fascinating point: A name says nothing, but a name
touches the essence.
We've Got His Number
Think again of those unique identifiers. Why do we use numbers like
4509HXB3580000001 to identify people? Wouldn't it be nicer to tell the computer,
"The pleasant young lady who likes wearing purple dresses and is a little
shorter than the receptionist's counter here in the office"? Well, for two
reasons: Firstly, because any of that information could change. There's really
very little internal information about you that isn't subject to change (your
parents, place of birth and birth date are things you'd be hard set to change,
but that's not information about you--just about your circumstances in getting
here).
And then, there's another reason: None of that sort of information points
uniquely to you. Somewhere in the world, there may be some other diminutive
female with the same purple-dress pathology. Accumulative information tells you
about the person, but doesn't always pull up the right person. A fingerprint
gets you the jackpot every time.
So look at this: With information from the Ein Sof, you don't have who
He is, but you have Him, 100%.
Think about it: From the Ein Sof extends a finite world--many finite
worlds--with the parameters of time, space and consciousness. What does time,
space and consciousness tell us about the Ein Sof? Nothing. Could have
used something else altogether. What? We couldn't have any idea. The Ein Sof
isn't married to time and space (or consciousness) any more than you are married
to some alphanumeric sequence generated by a computer's random function.
The difference being that you didn't choose that alphanumeric jumble. Good
chance you didn't choose your name, either. But G-d chose to be expressed
through ten attributes of Wisdom, Understanding, Knowing, Kindness, Might,
Beauty, etcetera--from which extend time and space--and not in any other way. He
is the one who picked that set of modalities out of an infinite set of
possibilities. If so, that's where He is found. Not because that's Him--but
because that is how He, in all His essence, chose to be found.
Wherever He Chooses To Be
Now you're going to say, "What's this business about the Ein Sof
choosing? Isn't that just another anthropomorphism? Choosing is a temporal
event. The Ein Sof just is. Or isn't. Or whatever."
This is what we mean by choosing: We mean that nothing that extends from the
Ein Sof is necessary. Nothing has to be the way it is. So whatever
does come out is a fingerprint--a fingerprint of a place that has no restrictive
clauses whatsoever.
If you think about this, you'll realize that I'm telling you something that
turns everything you know on its head: It turns out that there's something
beyond the Ein Sof. Because the Ein Sof by the very fact that it
is so unlimited has this limitation: That everything is the same for it.
So we're saying there's something beyond that. There's a point that is so
free and unlimited that it can choose whatever set it wishes to choose out of
the infinite possibilities of the Ein Sof and say, "I want to be
this."1
Here's a down-to-earth illustration of what I mean, something we can all
relate to--especially the five-year old:
This was in the times that Rabbi Yochanan was the pre-eminent sage of his
time in the land of Israel (circa 240 CE). At some point, a difficult case came
before the sages: A man had left a will that bequeathed all his property to his
son, but only once his son would go insane.
The sages had no clue what to do. So they went to see Rabbi Yochanan. When
they arrived at his home, they found him running around on all fours, neighing
like a horse, with his little boy on his back. Respectfully, they waited until
the rabbi was done, had brushed off his clothes and then sat with him to present
the enigmatic will.
"Well, my colleagues," answered Rabbi Yochanan, "I believe you've already
seen your answer when you arrived here. The man obviously meant to wait until
his son would have children."
Nice story, but now let me ask you a simple question: Who had the real Rabbi
Yochanan? The sages or his son?
The sages had Rabbi Yochanan the sage, what we called "accumulative
information" of his persona. They could go away and describe to you Rabbi
Yochanan, his wisdom, his demeanor, his personality.
The little boy had none of that. He has no clue of his father's wisdom or who
his father really is. But he has his father.
Because his father decided, "I want to be down there with that little boy.
And I will be whatever it takes to be there--even if it takes being a horse,
even if it means acting insane in front of distinguished sages, even if it means
wearing out the knees of my designer jeans. That's who I want to be with and
where I want to be."
So that's where he is found.
So is G-d Wisdom? Or Compassion? Or Love? Of course not. He is the Ein Sof,
infinitely beyond any description. But if you want to find Him, you will study
His wisdom, pray for His compassion and learn to love as He loves. And in that,
as a small child has his father, you will have Him.
Listen to the Fingerprints
How do you get to that? How do you tune in to G-d's wisdom, compassion, etc.?
Thinking all day and night won't get you there--just more of your own wisdom,
but not His. You're just spinning in circles.
Like we said, His wisdom is in those fingerprint articulations of the Ein
Sof that generate a universe. Only that, on the way down, generating lower
and lower worlds, the complexity approaches the chaos-point and noise overwhelms
the signal. Information becomes gobbly-gook, i.e. our world. The whole thing
begins to look like a Wikipedia article that went awry.
Fortunately, there have been certain clear minds in history, both Jewish and
otherwise, that were capable of tuning in to the signal as it sounds above,
before it begins all its convolutions on the way down. Not through pondering,
philosophizing, demolishing competitive theses and getting published with
Cambridge University Press--but by freeing their minds from the maddening noise
of the material world and opening it up to the bright light of higher
realms.2 Up
there, you get a pure, clear signal. And if you are a truly fine-tuned receiver
for that signal, it will come down into your mind, your thoughts and even your
words, straight into this world for others to hear.
Now imagine one of those human signal-towers so tall, so finely tuned, so
devoid of inner noise, the ultimate in super-conductivity because his ego
presents zero friction to the transmission energy. Imagine that he picks up the
core vibrations of the universe, straight from the original source. Imagine that
he transmits that signal to a mass of diverse people in an intelligible form,
even managing to amplify it so that all can tune into it directly. And then, to
ensure that the signal is preserved for posterity, he spends forty years with
his people wandering in the desert, drawing it even further down, into physical
writing on leather parchment. His hand writes stories, cryptic instructions and
tallies of numbers--all directly extended from that core signal, as first-level
harmonics extend from string vibrations.
Then he provides the decrypting code to his students who utilize it for the
next three and something thousand years to figure out what to do in every
possible situation.
Of course, if someone were to come and tell me that some bearded gentleman
had tuned into the inner vibrations of the cosmos and heard that I'm supposed to
hang knotted threads from my four-cornered garments and avoid turning on
light-switches on Saturdays at all costs, I would probably just return a kind
smile. But we Jews have no choice but to believe. We were there at the time and
saw it happen for ourselves. And if it didn't happen, then what on earth are we
doing here today? That event is the only explanation we have of our existence
that works.3
So that's what Jews believe: That in this Torah and in these mitzvahs are
found the fingerprint of the Ein Sof, that which has no definition and
can never be known. That this intangible No-thingness chooses to relate to us,
to be found there in our profoundly finite, perhaps even childish dreams and
aspirations, melodramas and concerns, the way we eat, sleep, love, quarrel and
make a living--all this is found in G-d's fingerprint, in this Torah of His. And
that by absorbing this Torah--and allowing ourselves to be absorbed within
it--we achieve perfect union with the Essence of All Things. We have Him, just
like the little boy had his father. Him in all His essence. Or it. Or whatever.
Perhaps that's why small children have no trouble relating to G-d--because
they have no notions of who and what He is supposed to be. Perhaps that's all we
really need to do: To think again like a naïve, simple five-year old and just
say, "G-d, I really want a bicycle."
And then all the questions slip away.
Perhaps, then, this was the whole purpose of your journey: That you should
come to a deeper understanding of how utterly insane it is to be a Jew and
believe you can talk to the Infinite as your best friend. Because it is. Just as
it was insane for Rabbi Yochanan to be a horse. But for the child and the father
to connect, as for the child to inherit the father, as for us to become one with
the Ein Sof--none of that will be through intellect. It will be through
that utterly insane point of freedom that lies at the core of every human being
and of all things. Aka G-d.4
